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Alright so, its been 3 days now, and finally my fever is starting to settle, and im feeling like im a normal human being with a body thats not burning up every 6 hours!!! hmm... yea, well as much as being sick can be so annoying, the minus factors certainly compound, when you know that, with each day away from the office, the amount of work that is going to pile up will increase alarmingly. (Just like in the cartoons where stacks of paper pile up, and in the end, no one can see who's at the table! hehehe!!)

 

In my job, we are told that we are supposed to be and have to be contactble 24/7 for our dearly beloved customers. Therefore, rain or shine, tsunami or hurricane, my mobile phone has to be switched on!!! hmm... so there goes any chances of me being able to get any rest!!! cos as soon as the working day dawns, my phone goes "beep beep beep".... and yes.... its a wonderful call from a very friendly customer! and yes, sick or not, its down to business and business it is, in a kind and cuerteous and friendly manner!

 

Well looking on the bright side of it all, because of my mobile being switched on, I was able to co-ordinate matters with my colleagues, and as we all work together as a team, matters of all concerns were resolved with ease!

 

So right now, I have two mobile phones with me.... and one that keeps me ALIVE by the love that I feel from the other end of the phone.... and one that keeps me receiving a solid income and is the means of my LIFE!!

 

hmm.... I hear my phone ringing now.....!!

I haven't done anything except  sit here all day and try and drown my surrows by listening to every song that I love, It's been a slow day, my phone is barred, so I can't even call Shaistha (my partner in crime) and Nazee (my mirror n soulmate n best pal). Ya, so it can't get any worse....!!!

 

Last nite was a terrible nite for all of us.... ppl lost their lives..... the town was in darkness..... it was under attack.... and no one knew what was happening, and among all this chaos, our guys in Barbados started to lose their way.... and den we lost da match in the end.... !!!

 

It's stange how happy moments and tragic moments, bring people together again..... last nite in the darkness, the one person who was on the phone with me giving me cricket updates was none other than my lil gud girl, Christine.

 

I was just enjoying every moment of it.... cos it reminded me of the past, where we would watch the match together, even though we were quite far away..... and it used to always bring us closer.....  and now the memories started to sweep me and overwhelm me.... and I just never wanted it to end, because for once.... it felt like everything was ok again! and that she was back..... back in my world...... and then just as I got carried away.... the power came back on!!!......

 

.... and like a dream..... it all faded away..... because now it was back to reality, and she realised that we had got carried away, and decided that now it was best if we watched the match alone...!

 

i wish the power had never come back on....... !!

As I write this.... the only feeling that surrounds me is a feeling of depression, depression and more depression. So much of hope was built up around this entire day where we would win the world cup once again, and regain the glory of 1996, which now seems so far away, it seems like a distant dream!

 

From the moment we lost the toss, I felt a tremor go through my body, cos I knew it spelt disaster, if the Aussies took first lease of a pitch that looked so good for batting, and with the sun out as well, things looked very dismal. However, I still had hope, for 2 reasons: [1] Mahela seemed ok even with batting 2nd, and [2] if Vaas gets swing from the early morning conditions, we could rip their top order apart. Alas, I think Mahela in his heart of hearts truly wished he could have batted first, and Vaas didn't get any swing, nor did Malinga, and that was the start of our downfall. From the time Gilly started smashing us like a exhibition buffet match, it was just ominious signs right throughout, and my last hope rested in Murali  and our spinners getting some quick wickets to stem the flow of runs, but that too never transpired, and in the end, the aussies did what they had to, they neutralized our STRENGTH which was our bowling, and made sure they were in safe waters by posting 288-4 by the end of 38 overs.

 

Thereafter, it was just forelorn hope that we could make a fist out of it, and Tharanga started off well by smashing the first ball of Bracken for a four. And Sanath and Kumar had their own set of fireworks by getting us in a position to challenge them. While fireworks happened at Barbados, fireworks happened here as well in the nite sky as the terrorists attacked key points in the city and due to that, plunged the whole country into darkness as well. If things couldn't get any worse, Rain hit barbados again, and the target was revised, and with the departure of Sanath and Kumar, Mahela Jaywardene and Chamara Silva decided to floor the accelorator, but by doing so, they got dismissed, and with that it was the end of all hopes, dreams and happiness of every sri lankan living across the world.

 

This was our last chance of ever winning the world cup...... we were so close, yet so far....... I don't think depression could any worse.... I call myself SL Cricket's no.1 fan....  and I know that no matter what happens, I will remain depressed that we couldn't win..... but however, I am so proud of our guys for proving to the world, that we are no push overs, and even though Australia is no.1 now.... we are no.2 and a very CLOSE no.2 that can beat the whole world on their day! .......

Well well, it certianly has taken a long time, and a long breath of fresh air, before I could virtually storm back into the world of MSN spaces!!! Yes I had quite a few long long breaks since the day I started working, and its been more than a year since I have been working, and yet I am still trying to find the right balance between work and fun, and relaxation!  Actually I think I have finally found it, as I have three essences of a perfect life => Good Parents (I always had them, so thats not something new), Goos Job (Now Im in my 2nd job, and its a really awesome one too, so I finally can say I am settled) and finally, the most important ingredient, "Good Girl". 

 

As much as I learnt a lot through the past year, by meeting somehow who ruined my life with her temper that could even roast iron bars that have been chilled with liquid nitrogen..... and then meeting someone who swept me off my feet, the second I layed eyes on her! She was the 'Good Girl' that moved my life, she radiated so much of happiness, she took away everything that was wrong, and made them right. She showed me, what its was, and how it was to be truly in love. She was loved by everyone that knew her, she was a household name, she was everything I wanted a girl to be, and most of all, she was mine.

 

Good Girl, is no longer here with me, but as much as the departure was terribly painful, she transformed me into someone I had never been before. She made me realise that I would always be her Hero, her one person whom she would never ever forget, who she would trust till she dies!!

 

She erased my past, she became my no.1 girl in my life... and ever since I met Good Girl, and ever since I lost her, I decided that I would always be stronger now, and live life to he fullest, as I no longer feel alone, even though I might be Single.  She has erased that feeling of loneliness, something which no other girl could ever do.... and I tink because of that she finally brought out the best in me.....  my true self.....  who works hard mon to fri, and parties hard sat nite till dawn..... 

 

As I listen to "Hear in your arms" by HelloGoodBye (a song she loves so much), I miss you, Christine....  This blog is specially dedicated to you....!!